你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

你们可能相爱过，你们也可能喜欢着彼此，
但是，为了什么原因你们没能在一起？

也许他为了朋友之间的义气，不能追你。
也许为了顾及家人的意见 ，你们没有在一起。
也许为了出国深造，他没有要你等他。
也许你们相遇太早，还不懂得珍惜对方。
也许你们相遇太晚，你们身边已经有了另一个人。
也许你回头太迟，对方已不再等待。
也许你们彼此在捉摸对方的心，而迟迟无法跨出界线。

不过即使你们没在一起，你们还是保持了朋友的关系。
但是你们心底清楚，对这个人，你比朋友还多了一份关心。
即使不能跟他名正言顺的牵着手逛街，你们还是可以做无所不谈的朋友。
他有喜欢的人，你口头上会帮他追，心里却不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困难时，你会尽你所能的帮他，不会计较谁又欠了谁。
男女朋友吃醋了，你会安抚他说你和他只是朋友，但你心中会有那么一丝的不确定。

每个人这辈子，心中都有过这幺一个特别的朋友，很矛盾的行为。
一开始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然发现这样最好。

你宁愿这样关心他， 总好过你们在一起而有天会分手。
你宁愿做他的朋友，彼此不会吃醋，才可以真的无所不谈。
特别是这样，你还是知道，他永远会关心你的。

做不成男女朋友，当他那个特别的朋友，有什么不好呢？你心中的这个特别的朋友...? 是谁呢？

很多的感情，都因为一厢情愿，最后连朋友都当不成了，常常觉得惋惜.
可惜一些本来很好的友情，最后却因为对方的一句喜欢你，如果你没有反应，这一段友情似乎也难以维持下去，这也难怪有些人会因此不肯踏出这一步。

因为这就像是一场赌注，表白了之后不是成了男女朋友，要不就连朋友都当不成了。有些事不是你能预料的，或许对方不在意，你们还可以是朋友，但却已经不如从前的好。也是可惜，也是遗憾！但还有没有可能是另一种情况，你可能永远都不甘心只是朋友. . . . .

有缘牵手就别分手，有缘在一起就别闹气!

我曾经离开过那一个人 ，却没有离开想念的可能，我爱的那一个人，却放弃我对他最认真的部分


委屈却没有人诉说 为什么脆弱时候 想你更多 ,好多好多的话想对你说 悬着一颗心没着落, 我想我宁可都沉默 其实反而显得做作 , 如果你想起我 你会想到什么??


我一直以为自己可以很坚强，但我发现，原来我只是在逃避，逃避面对自己的悲伤，逃避难过。直到前天，我才知道自己的内心是多么的难过，非常的难过。

人一遇上爱就会变笨

为什么那么辛苦。。为什么还是放不下、
。。。。为了男生勉强自己。笨
为了男生患得患失。。瞎
如果喜欢我就喜欢现在的我

有得选择是幸福，也是一种痛苦，因为你永远必须为自己的选择负责！！！
爱情对我们来说。。真的需要看透

别人说,有缘牵手就别分手，有缘在一起就别闹气

可是,偏偏我们大家都办不到!

haix

Suddenly i feel like everyone is neglecting me...am i too bad? or i did something wrong? i duno how and what to do...i always try to not do anything bad or wrong and avoid people from hating me...whatever i do, i think of others first, i try not to hurt anyone, but what i get is to hurt myself...
sometimes i feel sick or not feeling well, i didn't tell my mom because i saw her very tired and stress with a lot of things...so i just keep it to myself, i din tell her unless i really can't tahan...another reason i don tell her is because i hv really use too much of her money to go hospital and clinic..sometimes i saw her expression when she bring me to hospital and pay for me...she seems like very anoying...at that time, i really feel very sad...i really hope that i don hv diabetis and won't be sick...
My sister and brother, they all hv a pc except me...is so not fair...i require one from my mom but she keep saying ask ur sister to let u use her pc...but will she? yes maybe...but whenever i wanna use her pc...she stare at me and very rude to me...and this makes me feel really really bad..as a result, i do my assignment in a rush and somehow juz cincai finish it and let her use the pc...
Sometimes we hv our group project to do and we hv online meeting so definately i hv to online and use the pc, and every time we hv a meeting, i hv to use more than 1 hour...but she always say she want to use while we haven finish our meeting..that is why i always leave the meeting earlier...but i don want to leave before the meeting end..but i have no choice...
i ask my mom to buy a laptop for me for about 3-4 month and she still don want to buy for me..but my brother want Wii, just the day he say, the next day she bought it for him...just 1 day she buy something my brother want and me i need a laptop and for 3 month she don want to buy...i duno what hv i done wrong...something that i need is it not as important as something my brother want?
in everybody's eye, i am just nothing...nothing...no respect even my yongest sister don respect me...always call me to do this do that, buy this buy that...and i am not ur driver...always angry with me when i don do what she wants...i am not ur doll or whatever, i don hv to listen everything u say...
OMG i hv really much to say but i am getting emotional...alright i will stop here i guess...being a good person is really really hard...

14th of october~

CAKE!!
Yeah!!

14 of oct???what is that...is my dear birthday XD haha...so happy celebrating together ^^ yeah~we went to neway for on her birhday~and we hv to pay RM 75 per person T_T but since we are so so so so happy nvm la haha...we sing like mad haha...XD keep taking photo~really very happy that day...really~and too happy till duno what to wite XD swt..haha...hmm...lets see, that day i we plan to go 1u about 4pm...and i noe for sure my beloved fren sure will be late at least 1 hour (she had never be in time) but coz i decide to buy her bday present so i just go early. When i reach there, yung hui had already reach and kar kei call me just when i park in my car and she say we will meet at MPH coz yung hui was here. so i park my car at old wing and i go all the way to MPH at new wing. Then i wait for a while and decide to call kar kei, swt she told me she is at the old wing cinema which is TGV, so i juz walk all the way back to old wing again. And what hapen then is i can't see kar kei there, and i call her again, she told me she is in the toilet at one floor lower from TGV...she say she need a scissors to cut something so i try and help her buy, wow~we spend quite a lot of time doing that...then we meet yung hui and try to go and go buy present for ting ting~but at last we din buy any coz duno what to buy >.< we hv an idea to buy a bra for her haha but duno her size T_T haha~so we decide to let her choose after singing...we book the room for 6pm and our miss yu ting come at 6++ see she say 4++ and she come at 6++ late for 2 hour...swt...late queen..haha...oh ya~ ming yoke came too and we just go past her and din notice her XD but she went home early coz her mom don allow her to go out too late...haix~but left 4 of us crazy in the room haha...


still hv many many photo in yu ting's camera >.< i wan i wan~ yu ting faster upload and sent to me >.< hehe~love u guys a lots...really happy that day although is not my bday haha...XD

taiwanese Hitch

蓝天情圣

i am dying T-T

ahhhhhhhhhh~~~~~~~ why suddenly feel like got so so so so so many things to do geh....wanna die jor la...sobz...!_! lots of assignment,somemore hv to go hospital almost once every 2 week...once going there,is like wasting the whole day...=.= help me lar...where got time to do my assignment,somemore i wan to study lecture notes lar...mummy~ haiz...cousin wedding dinner have to go all the way back to Melaka....how how....aaarrrggghhhh.....stressful life!

i did it!! 30-hours of famine~ XD

yeah~ i fast for 30-hours...wow~ why? haha...coz to experience what is hungry..haha XD by the time i can also help ppl as well as gain 3 extra marks for psy 101...kaka..but that is not the reason i join the 30-hours of famine of coz...i joined before i knew i can get 3 extra marks ler~ i wanted to join is simply because i have not join b4 and want to hv an eperence of this activity as well as help the poor. U know what~it is really fun and nice...although it is really hungry..XD but,it is really really really meaningful.(when i say the words 3 time,it means it is really meaningful..haha..XD) hmmm...lets see,this event is organized by sin chew and **our college** haha...HELP UNIVERSITY COLLEGE! yeah...XD and this year is the 10th year of this event and what is special is that they are having the english and the chinese group together.(In the past they are saperated)and about 5400 ppl contributes in this event...wow...many ppl rite ^^ is a good news...ok done crap too much haha..XD lets begin the journey..^^"

15 SEPT 2007

Before goin to the camp,i ate 4 bread with butter..XD kaka .then about 10++ in the morning i reach bukit jalil putra stadium where the camp is.(we have to register from 9.30am-11.30am)so,i scare i will be "sesat" XD coz bukit jalil is a huge place,therefore i went a bit early.But actually not so early mah..haha ...when i reach there,there are already many ppl waiting and registering already...when i reach there i was quite lost XD i saw most of them wearing white t-shirt and i am wearing a black one..XD(coz ling say that we wear black and can see as a gang) and feel like i am the weird one...but luckily ling have arrived =P i call her and she was inside the camp...then we settle everythings and are seperated in to groups...ling ,Gorgan and his friends are in group 3(at first we wanna enter the same group but th group was full)me, kar mun, xiao yun(Melissa) and jasmine were in group 5,and our leader is Alan(he is a good leader XD)in our group there are a girl from korea and one from china...wow,they are also studying psycho..XD they are our senior...lol... After that, we went into the hall and sit in groups.we sit juz infront of the stage =) oopppssss...can't remember what is the first activities..>.< so forgetful...nvm >.< we have a lot of fun activities on the first day...we enjoy the performance prepared by them,and u know what~Nicholas teo,Danielle lee and Fish leong were performing too..XD wow is like concert..lol...i am serious...we play the human waves..haha,oh ya we play with some big big baloon and when the music stops, which group are holding the baloon will be punished.And he punishment was dancing..haha...banana dance...is so funny XD lol...see see....banana dance...lol...


Then we have the open ceramony,there were drum performance(dunno call what >.< simply say..haha XD)and all of us were so damn high..kaka..=)i really have fun there...we are also showed that how is the life of poor in different country and different are...they really don't have enough food to eat and some of them do even have comfortable clothes to wear or even a house...that was so sad.u see,we are now living in a peaceful country and in good condition,but we are still complaining this and that.They lost their home their family and everything because of war.They have no food no clean water no shelther because they don have money.U see u have everything and u are still complaining.we should really appriciate what we have now and feel happy about it.Don be so picky about food,i wan Mc Donald,i want KFC,i don wan to eat vegetables,i wan this i don wan that.....u know what they eat? they eat left over food,expired bread....etc....they don hv choices...sometimes they may not have anything to eat...maybe nothing to eat for 1 week,even a month! so, don't waste food!
we always wanna drink coke,pepsi,cappucino....u know that they don even have clean water to drink!some of them drank the dirty water which contain the larva of a kind of worm(i forgot what is the name of the worm) and as time goes by the worm started to spoilt their body and they have to pull the worm out manually from their leg and it is really very painful...so sad to know this... ok don say bout those sad things...hmm...at the night of the first day we have many ppl singing as i mention juz now XD we were really very high like attending concert..XD haha..we scream like crazy,dancing together and shaking our hungry and tired body XD kaka...some of them are really too energetic and keep dancing and screaming till the end of the performance...lol...i guess at that time we are about to forget the hunger... wow~ Danielle XD can't take a nice photo coz i am using my hp XD maybe jasmine will have better photo with her camera..haha.. Yeah~ Nicholas Teo XD leng zai but too small lar the image...>.< his fans club came too...lolz... Almost the end of the performance for the first day... wow~ nice view...haha i was sitting up here coz they were tires and we are preparing to sleep..XD actually i hope to join them too XD but my friends are tired...and i don have the courage to join them..T_T but nvm lar i have fun too..^^"

oooppppssss~ forgot something, we have an activity which we have to build a shelther that can fit in 5 ppl and stay for 5 min with newspaper...wow sounds interesting...lol...in the end our goup hv succesfully build it..haha XD but it is a bit unstable...we try hard and use a lot of time to stable it XD at last we did it..yeah...(clap hand) haha...

16 SEPT 2007

second day...wow we have about 10 more hours to go...at this time everyone is hungry i guess haha...maybe start from yesterday already hungry...XD in the morning we have a yoga class..lol..them we have some activities and also the talk by ermm...forgot his name >.< i am really forgetful lar...swt..at this time everyone is very hngry and tired...lol...but later we have the performance by the disable ppl we are all semangat again...haha...what is in mind is "whatever lah" lol XD their performance was really good...we also have the performance by Danial (who can't see)he sing many songs...and his voice is really really nice....is like his concert...wow~i like his GREAT!!we shouted encho XD haha...and he sing more...it was really great....when he sing "tong hua" everyone sing along together,and that feel is really like his concert...if he will organised a concert,i sure will attend...=)

Then we have our free time and loafting around lol...and also song dedication...by that time everyone seems to be really tires..haha...sleeping everywhere...lol..i sleep too XD haha...about almost 30 hours...we are showed a video clip about a guy goin to the urbans area and life with them 30 DAYS...30 DAYS!he was not given any food any water and money....what he eat is same as what the ppl eat there....when time goes by he looks weaker and weaker.i really "pei fu" him...he can survive for 30 days there...miricle...for me sure cannot XD only for 30 hours i wanna go home...XD we should give him a very big clap...=P he did this juz wan ppl to know about the poor's life...so " wei da" now comes the most important second....

oopppsss...XD before that we hv to write a reflecting and share it with our group member...what i have learn is that we really really really should not waste food....as well as water...do appiciate whatever we have...don keep complaining this and that...we are really lucky to live in malaysia where we don have any war here and we have a good family.do appriciate it...i will definately join this event next year..yeah XD will you? i hope u will too....it is relly meaningful and fun too...come and experience it and u will know...come and help them...u know ,the theme of this camp is "hungry for hope" in chinese we say,"因为你，孩有希望！" do come for the 30-hours famine next year....come come come...juz 30 hours only...only 30 hours!!! yeah,is time for the countdown for break fast!before that we sing that we sing the theme song together...i like the song..really nice...

lets count together XD 10...9...8...7...6...5...4...3...2...1...yeah!!! cheers! haha...everyone were so so so happy...we can see smiles from everyone's face...wow,such a nice scene...hope that the time stop at that time...haha XD we are given a glass of soya milk and a banana cake...mmmmm~at this time everyone open the cake and eat with joy!huray~we did it...30 hours only mah...what is the big deal..XD hahahaha......

Performance at sg. wang.....

有爱情，就有孤单！

牵手的那一刻，就注定了我的一生。。。
孤单不是与生俱来，而是又由你爱上一个人的那一刻开始。。。。

你就是我的孤单！
原来，所有的责任，感情，承诺，忍耐，都是孤单的源头。。。

爱在一次的伤痛后离开！
当你为他做了这一切，你竟然感到无比的孤单。。。

潮起潮落中连记忆也跟着退色！
你不必再听他唠叨，不用再迁就他，不用再向他说甜言蜜语。。。


在得到与失去的矛盾中成长！
你无需再逼自己和他一起成长或一起不成长。。

不是有他才是你快乐的源泉！
假如只有你一个人，你用不着再向他交待你的行踪。。。

恋爱过后只剩下无奈！
只是，许多年后，你忽然发现，你宁愿孤单一个人。。。

那些甜蜜蜜的吻！
你和他，曾经有过许多快乐时光，你以为从此不再孤单。。

两个人之间总隔着长长的距离！
最可怕的，是有了伴侣之后那份孤单。。

单身的幸福！
一个人的孤单，并不可怕。。

没有王子，依然可以做公主！
你也可以选择下班之后，立刻回到家里，享受自己的世界。。。

有请比爱情更值得依赖！
你可以一个人走遍世界，结识不同的朋友。。

在自己的世界寻找幸福！
这是孤单是一种境界。。。

一个人不孤单，想一个人才孤单！！
没有伴侣的时候，即使是孤单也可以快乐！

Merdeka XD

haha...merdeka...my fren have a performance at sg.wang...me and my sis went to watch...but >< we went to the wrong place and when we reach there they juz finish dancing...sobz...but i get to see others performance as well...lets have a look...=P but i guess the video will be lag..XD

on 30/8 i went to ikano to see the firework ^^ hehe...so nice ler the firewirk..i recored it too...hehe...post here loo...XD many video to upload...kakakaka...nice hor nice hor..haha..XD but is bad for our ozon swt...what to do...ppl like to see mah...haha...i guess the firework competition at putrajaya will be more nice ...XD that day was japan....many ppl say it will be so so so nice...but sure many many many ppl lor...

Went to see street dance competition...

i tot it will be quite interesting and fun to go see ppl dance...but a bit dissapointed...XD first is there are so many tall tall ppl =.= standing in front so, since i am short...can't see...>.< second...it was so damn hot there.....can become BBQ liao..T_T..haha...third is that their dance wasn't so nice....but there are some quite good.....i only see 5 group dance...why?coz after 5 group...they stop and we wait there for about 1 hour =.= and it was so so so hot there.....and so smelly (coz many of them smoke)....and my sister say she don wanna see anymore...actually i wish to see..but since it is so hot and duno when they gonna start again,and i can't see coz there are too many tall guys..T-T so we juz went back...nvm i wanna wait their final i guess is on 13/10 i wanna see....XD hope i get to see that time...hope i am not buzy.....oh ya..haha..i get to record some of them dancing....hehe..XD

INSTRUCTION : Bold the statements that are true to you. Italicize the statements that you WISH are true. Leave the fibs alone. Then, stab anyone to do the same test.







1) I miss somebody right now.

2) I do not watch TV these days.

3) I wear glasses or contact lenses.

4) I love to play video games.

5) I have tried marijuana.

6) I have been in a threesome.

7) I believe honesty is usually the best policy. [My Words: sometimes la...]

8) I have changed mentally over the last year. [My Words: change a lot lo...]

9) I curse. [My Words: ]

10) I âm totally smart. [My Words: i hope so ..haha...]

11) I’ve broken someone’s bones.

12) I âm paranoid sometimes.

13) I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.

14) I need money right now. [My Words: i have a lot of things to buy...XD]

15) I love sushi.

16) I talk really, really fast.

17) I have long hair.

18) I have lost money in Las Vegas.

19) I have at least one sibling.

20) I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.

21) I couldnt survive without Caller ID.

22) I like the way I look. [My Words: swt...]

23) I am usually pessimistic. [My Words: ....]

24) I have a lot of mood swings.

25) I have a hidden talent. [My Words: i hope i have...]

26) I âm always hyper.

27) I have a lot of friends. [My Words: hope to have true friends better than have a lot of them but all is not true...]

28) I have pecked someone of the same sex.

29) I enjoy talking on the phone.

30) I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.

31) I love to shop. [My Words: depends...]

32) Enjoy window shopping. [My Words: ]

33) I would rather shop than eat. [My Words: Why compare shopping with eating?]

34) I don't hate anyone. [My Words: To hate is to be unwise. Remember this.]

35) I âm a pretty good dancer.

36) I âm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.

37) I have a cell phone.

38) I believe in God.

39) I am an adrenaline junkie.

40) I watch MTV on a daily basis.

41) I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.

42) I have rejected someone before. [My Words: .....]

43) I want to have children in the future. [My Words: they are cute but sometimes quite annoying XD]

44) I have changed a diaper before.

45) I have called the cops on a friend before.

46) I am not allergic to anything. [My Words: ]

47) I have a lot to learn. [My Words: ]

48) I am shy around members of the opposite sex.

49) I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.

50) I have tried alcohol before.

51) I own the South Park movie.

52) I would die for my best friend. [My Words: It depends on the meaning of "best friend"<--agree.]

53) I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza. [My Words: i don't really like pizza.]

54) I have used my sexuality to advance my career.

55) I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.

56) Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.

57) I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.

58) I am happy at this moment!

59) I âm obsessed with girls/guys.

60) I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met. [My Words: ]

61) I study for tests most of the time. [My Words: of coz lar...]

62) I am comfortable with who I am right now

.63) I have more than just my ears pierced.

64) I walk barefoot wherever I can.

65) I have jumped off a bridge.

66) I love sea turtles.

67) I spend ridiculous money on makeup.

68) Plan on achieving a major goaldream. [My Words: i hope i could.]

69) I âm proficient in a musical instrument.

70) I hate office jobs. [My Words: quite boring...but depends lo...]

71) I love sci-fi movies.

72) I think water rules. [My Words: ???]

73) I went college out of state.

74) I like sausages. [My Words: No comment.]

75) I love kisses.

76) I fall for the worst people.

77) I adore bright colours.

78) I can't live without black eyeliner.

79) I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.

80) I usually like covers better than originals.

81) I can pick up things with my toes. [My Words: what is da conclusion??]

82) I can whistle.

83) I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither. [My Words: =.=]

84) I have ridden/owned a horse.

85) I still have every journal I've written in.

86) I can stick to a diet. [My Words: If I really have to.]

87) I talk in my sleep. [My Words: How would I know?]

88) I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.

89) I have jazz in my blood.

90) Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.

91) I wear a toe ring.

92) I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.

93) I am a caffeine junkie.

94) I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. [My Words: i know but don't cosplay....

]95) I have been to over 15 conventions.

96) I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.

97) I âm an artist.

98) I only clean my room when necessary. [My Words: when i am in a good mood]

99) I like a person of the same sex. [My Words: why should i don like them?]

100) I love being happy. [My Words: who don wanna be happy???]~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

爱情是什么？

有一种爱，像遥远的大海即使被酷日蒸干了水分它仍会化作甘霖，遍洒饥渴的大地……

有一种爱，叫作痛痛得心脏起了褶子痛得头脑空洞无物痛得意志麻木萧瑟……

有一种爱，叫放弃明知道许多事情是没有答案的却想找寻一个答案，真的好累……

有一种爱，叫忍让，忍让也是一种爱以爱的方式善待对方的缺陷用包容的胸怀宽恕自己的爱人，给他一个悔悟的机会留一个自省的空间，于平平淡淡中演绎经典在无声无语中融洽恩爱这样，即使是不传奇的爱情也将变得永恒再平淡的婚姻，依然一如既往令人流连

有一种爱，叫放手昨日的幸福已成为一种痕迹两人能携手走完整人生固然美好可陪上了一段也应心存感激了爱一个人不是要成为所爱的人的牵绊只要心中有爱，生活总是那么美好相遇是一种缘，相识，相恋更是一种缘缘起而聚，缘尽而散，放手才是真爱！

有一种爱，叫离开爱情给的唯一的东西就是背叛，无情的背叛！曾经是那么相爱的两个人，转眼陌路留下的是残缺不全的记忆和心痛没有想到结局会是这样，曾经的海誓山盟曾经的天长地久转眼都成了飞灰经常惊醒于午夜梦回的黑暗中，我的心都好痛是思念一个人的疼痛，看着夜空中的星星想着远方属于你的夜你还好吗？一直都快乐吗？没有我在身边是不是有另外一个人去关心你，爱你呢？

有一种爱，我们不能称之为爱情　虽然有同样的心动，同样的怀想同样乍然相见的喜悦，依依不舍的眷恋但世间总有一种约束，让心思沉静让感情不再漂泊，发乎情，只能，止乎礼但依然可以在阳光下享受难得的温情依然可以在午夜梦回时心生柔情依然可以相信自己的完美与可爱在这些温柔的情愫里……

有一种爱，可以默默的爱默默的理解，默默在心里装满祝福挥一挥手，让春草绵绵，落红成阵就是有这样的感情啊飘荡成缠绵而温暖的空气就是在这样无心的眷恋里我们认识自己也认识世间就是有这样无缘而有情的瞬间让我们轻轻的叹息，深深的爱虽然我们相爱，但我们，不称之为爱情

真正的朋友v.s.普通的朋友

真正的朋友v.s.普通的朋友
一个普通的朋友从未看过你哭泣。一个真正的朋友有双肩让你的泪水湿荆

一个普通的朋友不知道你父母的姓氏。一个真正的朋友有他们的电话在通讯簿上。

一个普通的朋友会带瓶葡萄酒参加你的派对。一个真正的朋友会早点来帮你准备, 为了帮你打扫而晚点走。

一个普通的朋友讨厌你在他睡了后打来。一个真正的朋友会问为什么现在才打来。

一个普通的朋友找你谈论你的困扰。一个真正的朋友找你解决你的困扰。

一个普通的朋友对你的罗曼史感到好奇。一个真正的朋友可以威胁你说出来。

一个普通的朋友在拜访时，像一个客人一样。一个真正的朋友会打开冰箱自己拿东西。

一个普通的朋友在吵架后就认为友谊已经结束。一个真正的朋友明白当你们还没打过架就不叫真正的友谊。

一个普通的朋友期望你永远在他身边陪他。一个真正的朋友期望他能永远陪在你身旁！

我以为。。。

我一直以为。。
以为自己可以很坚强。。
但我发觉，
我只是在逃避。。
逃避面对自己的悲伤，
逃避难过，
一直在逃避。。
直到昨天，
我才知道自己内心是多么的难过。
非常的难过，
难过的好想消失在这世界上。
心里真的很难受，
觉得自己好像一点存在价值都没有。。
是这样的吗？


我想，
如果有一天，
我消失在这世界上，
不会有人为我的消失感到悲哀吧，
也不会觉得舍不得，
最多之事难过几天就把我忘了。。
应该就是这样。。


连一个真心的朋友都没有，
做人真失败。
我的人格真得那么差吗？
我很令人讨厌吗？
是这样的吗？


为什么？
我只是很少说话啊。。
我也想多说说话，
只是我怕。。。
我怕说错话，
我怕得罪人，
更怕说话伤到人，
我真得不会说话。。


在家里，
我说一句，
他们说回我十句，
你说我该怎么办？
老是爱顶我，
只好少说点，
静静的。。


在学校，
不知道为什么，
我会很害怕说话，
说一都不说话，
为什么会这样呢？
不知道！
或许，
英文不好是其中一个理由吧。


最近，
我知道自己心情不好，
好想出去玩，
出去走走，
可是。。
我发觉，
都没人陪我。。
难道想要找朋友出去都那么难？
真得很难。。


原来，
我最难过的不是失去了一个我很爱的人，
而是。。
失去了友情，
失去了真正的友谊，
失去了真心对待的朋友！

朋友。。。
何谓朋友？
有难同当，有福同享？
还是有福同享，有难自己当？
我想很多人都是这样的吧。。
难道我真心对别人，
他们却只是在利用我？
当我是挡箭牌？
当我是代替品？
还是把我当水鱼？
或许吧。。

T_T

cham~~~yesterday went to dancing class....teacher teach so damn fast lar....i can't catch up '-'
swtz...last week leg already bengkak coz knock dou de floor now still haven recover yesterday knock again +_+ swtz...bengkak again liao...dunno when can recover...this is juz my 3rd class ...cham...cham....

hmm...i found that since i went to see doctor coz of my very high blood sugar--->diabetis...they treat me different...very different...last time mummy juz like to scold me everyday scold...dunno scold for what...haiz u tot i wan my blood sugar to be high wan meh...juz know to scold ppl...and now no more scolding...but sometimes will show face color to me =.= maybe she oso in bad mood gua...nvm lo...sometimes i feel that they quite "fan" wan...after i woke up...mum call me and ask u inject already? eat liao ma? got faint ma?feel anything tell me ar...then....later dad call again...u got feel anything? got faint? inject liao ma? then later sister come back home....ask again...how? can inject urself? got feel anything?what u eat? OMG!! i am not a kid anymore and i don't like this...is like i am a sick ppl...everyone treat me like a sick ppl ...i hate it lar...i know they juz care bout me but sometimes i really feel so....dunno how to say that feeling...i want to be normal..i wan ppl to treat me as a normal person...i don't want to be like a sick ppl...i hate that feeling...really hate it...i know sometimes when they ask me anything and my tone is a bit loud...but juz becoz i don't like them to keep asking ....i doesn't meant it...really...sometimes after i said what i had said i feel so sorry...i always say sorry in my heart...i don't dare to say it out...dunno why...but i also don't want to be like that....i know they do all this is juz because they care bout me...i know...i really know...i understand...

Have to inject insulin...

omg...from today onwards...everyday....every time half an hour before having food...i have to inject insulin in to my body...all by myself T_T what to do? who ask me to be the one ho have diabetis....but the doctor say the best way is to inject insulin...better than do nothing now and suffer later...first time injecting the insulin really scare...normally the nurse help me to inject in the past...and now i have to inject all by myself...oh no the first time is with the help from my sister(she is a farmist who also teaches her patient to inject insulin in hospital) hv to inject for a month first and see how is my blood sugar level...if it is better,maybe i don hv to inject anymore and can use medicine to control my blood sugar level...well,if it is still da same....hah...i hv to continue inject until..i oso dunno when...maybe till i die...well...nothing i can do rite...juz to accept the truth lo...so in conclusion...happy oso hv to inject not happy oso hv to inject, therefore of coz i will choose to be....happy lo ^^

爱..

爱的感觉,
总是在一开始时甜蜜,
总觉得多了一个人陪,
多了一个人帮你分担,




你终于不再孤单了,
因为至少有一个人想着你、
恋着你，
不论做什么事，
只要能在一起就是好的。


但是慢慢地，
随着认识的加深，
你开始发现了对方的缺点，
于是问题一个接一个出现，
你开始烦、
累，
甚至想要逃避。



有人说爱情就像捡石头，
总想捡到一个适合自己的，
但是你又如何知道什么时候能捡到呢？
她适合你，
那你又适合她吗？


其实爱情应该像磨石子儿，
或许刚捡到的进候，
你不是那么满意，
但是请记住，
人是有弹性的，
很多事情是可以改变的，



只要你有心，
有勇气，
与其到处去捡未知的石头，
还不如将自己已经拥有的石头磨亮磨光。
你开始磨了吗？


很多人以为，
是因为感情淡了，
人才会变得懒惰，
其实人是先被惰性征服，
感情才慢慢变淡的。


在某个聚餐的场合，
有人提议多吃点虾对身体好，
这时候有个中年男人忽然说：
“十年前，
当我老婆还是我女朋友的时候，
她说要吃十只虾，
我就剥二十只给她！



现在，
如果她要我帮她剥虾壳，
简直是开玩笑！
我连帮她夹菜都没兴趣了，
还剥虾壳呢。”

难怪越来越多的人只想谈一辈子恋爱，
却迟迟不肯走入婚姻。
因为婚姻容易让人变得懒惰。


如果每个人都懒得讲话，
懒得倾听，
懒得制造惊喜，
懒得温柔体贴，
那么夫妻或是情人之间，
又怎么不会渐行渐远渐无声呢？



所以请记住：
有活力的爱情，
是需要适度殷勤来灌溉的，
谈恋爱，
更是不可以偷懒的。


有一对情侣，
相约下班后去用餐、
逛街，
可是女孩因为公司会议延迟了，
当她冒雨赶到的时候已经到了30多分钟，
她男朋友很不高兴地说：
“你每次都这样，现在我什么心情也没了，我以后再也不会等你了！”
刹那间，女孩的心决堤崩溃了，
她在想：或许，他们再也没有未来了。


同样，
在同一个地点，
另一对情侣也面临同样的处境，
女孩赶到的时候也迟到了半个钟头，
她的男朋友说：“我想你一定忙坏了吧？”
接着他为女孩拭去脸上的雨水，
并且脱去外套披在女孩身上，
此刻，
女孩流泪了。
但是流过她脸颊的泪是温馨幸福的。 你体会到了吗？
其实爱恨往往只在我们的一念之间！
爱不仅要懂得宽容更要及时，
很多事可能只是在于你心境的转变罢了。
如果有个人爱上你，
而你也觉得他不错，
那并不代表你会选择他。 我们总说：
“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。”
但是当对方问你，
怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，
你却无法回答他，
因为你自己也不知道。


没错，
我们总是以为，
我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。
可是后来，
当即我们猛然回首，
才发觉自己曾经多么天真。



假如从来没有开始，
你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？
其实，
很爱很爱的感觉，
是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。
每个人都希望找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣
，但是你有没有想过，
在你身边早有人对你默默付出很久了，
只是你没发觉而已。


所以，
还是仔细看看身边的人吧，
他或许已经等你很久了。
当你爱一个人的时候，
爱到八分绝对刚刚好。
所有的期待和希望都只有七八分，
剩下两三分用来爱自己。



如果你还继续爱得更多，
很可能给对方造成沉重的压力，
让彼此喘不过气来，
完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。


所以请记住，
喝酒不要超过六分醉，
吃饭不要超过七分饱，
爱一个人不要超过八分。


如果你正在为爱迷惘，
下面这段话或许可以给你一些启示：
爱一个人，


要了解也要开解；
要道歉也要道谢；
要认错也要改错；
要体贴也要体谅；


是接受不是忍受；
是宽容而不是纵容；
是支持而不是支配；
是慰问而不是质问；


只倾诉而不是控拆；
是难忘而不是遗忘；
是彼此交流而不是凡事交代；
是为对方默默祈求而不是向对方诸多要求。


可以浪漫，
但不要浪费，
不要随便牵手，
更不要随便放手。