Suddenly i feel like everyone is neglecting me...am i too bad? or i did something wrong? i duno how and what to do...i always try to not do anything bad or wrong and avoid people from hating me...whatever i do, i think of others first, i try not to hurt anyone, but what i get is to hurt myself...
sometimes i feel sick or not feeling well, i didn't tell my mom because i saw her very tired and stress with a lot of things...so i just keep it to myself, i din tell her unless i really can't tahan...another reason i don tell her is because i hv really use too much of her money to go hospital and clinic..sometimes i saw her expression when she bring me to hospital and pay for me...she seems like very anoying...at that time, i really feel very sad...i really hope that i don hv diabetis and won't be sick...
My sister and brother, they all hv a pc except me...is so not fair...i require one from my mom but she keep saying ask ur sister to let u use her pc...but will she? yes maybe...but whenever i wanna use her pc...she stare at me and very rude to me...and this makes me feel really really bad..as a result, i do my assignment in a rush and somehow juz cincai finish it and let her use the pc...
Sometimes we hv our group project to do and we hv online meeting so definately i hv to online and use the pc, and every time we hv a meeting, i hv to use more than 1 hour...but she always say she want to use while we haven finish our meeting..that is why i always leave the meeting earlier...but i don want to leave before the meeting end..but i have no choice...
i ask my mom to buy a laptop for me for about 3-4 month and she still don want to buy for me..but my brother want Wii, just the day he say, the next day she bought it for him...just 1 day she buy something my brother want and me i need a laptop and for 3 month she don want to buy...i duno what hv i done wrong...something that i need is it not as important as something my brother want?
in everybody's eye, i am just nothing...nothing...no respect even my yongest sister don respect me...always call me to do this do that, buy this buy that...and i am not ur driver...always angry with me when i don do what she wants...i am not ur doll or whatever, i don hv to listen everything u say...
OMG i hv really much to say but i am getting emotional...alright i will stop here i guess...being a good person is really really hard...
Friday, October 26, 2007
Monday, October 15, 2007
14th of october~
CAKE!!
Yeah!!
14 of oct???what is that...is my dear birthday XD haha...so happy celebrating together ^^ yeah~we went to neway for on her birhday~and we hv to pay RM 75 per person T_T but since we are so so so so happy nvm la haha...we sing like mad haha...XD keep taking photo~really very happy that day...really~and too happy till duno what to wite XD swt..haha...hmm...lets see, that day i we plan to go 1u about 4pm...and i noe for sure my beloved fren sure will be late at least 1 hour (she had never be in time) but coz i decide to buy her bday present so i just go early. When i reach there, yung hui had already reach and kar kei call me just when i park in my car and she say we will meet at MPH coz yung hui was here. so i park my car at old wing and i go all the way to MPH at new wing. Then i wait for a while and decide to call kar kei, swt she told me she is at the old wing cinema which is TGV, so i juz walk all the way back to old wing again. And what hapen then is i can't see kar kei there, and i call her again, she told me she is in the toilet at one floor lower from TGV...she say she need a scissors to cut something so i try and help her buy, wow~we spend quite a lot of time doing that...then we meet yung hui and try to go and go buy present for ting ting~but at last we din buy any coz duno what to buy >.< we hv an idea to buy a bra for her haha but duno her size T_T haha~so we decide to let her choose after singing...we book the room for 6pm and our miss yu ting come at 6++ see she say 4++ and she come at 6++ late for 2 hour...swt...late queen..haha...oh ya~ ming yoke came too and we just go past her and din notice her XD but she went home early coz her mom don allow her to go out too late...haix~but left 4 of us crazy in the room haha...
still hv many many photo in yu ting's camera >.< i wan i wan~ yu ting faster upload and sent to me >.< hehe~love u guys a lots...really happy that day although is not my bday haha...XD
Yeah!!
14 of oct???what is that...is my dear birthday XD haha...so happy celebrating together ^^ yeah~we went to neway for on her birhday~and we hv to pay RM 75 per person T_T but since we are so so so so happy nvm la haha...we sing like mad haha...XD keep taking photo~really very happy that day...really~and too happy till duno what to wite XD swt..haha...hmm...lets see, that day i we plan to go 1u about 4pm...and i noe for sure my beloved fren sure will be late at least 1 hour (she had never be in time) but coz i decide to buy her bday present so i just go early. When i reach there, yung hui had already reach and kar kei call me just when i park in my car and she say we will meet at MPH coz yung hui was here. so i park my car at old wing and i go all the way to MPH at new wing. Then i wait for a while and decide to call kar kei, swt she told me she is at the old wing cinema which is TGV, so i juz walk all the way back to old wing again. And what hapen then is i can't see kar kei there, and i call her again, she told me she is in the toilet at one floor lower from TGV...she say she need a scissors to cut something so i try and help her buy, wow~we spend quite a lot of time doing that...then we meet yung hui and try to go and go buy present for ting ting~but at last we din buy any coz duno what to buy >.< we hv an idea to buy a bra for her haha but duno her size T_T haha~so we decide to let her choose after singing...we book the room for 6pm and our miss yu ting come at 6++ see she say 4++ and she come at 6++ late for 2 hour...swt...late queen..haha...oh ya~ ming yoke came too and we just go past her and din notice her XD but she went home early coz her mom don allow her to go out too late...haix~but left 4 of us crazy in the room haha...
still hv many many photo in yu ting's camera >.< i wan i wan~ yu ting faster upload and sent to me >.< hehe~love u guys a lots...really happy that day although is not my bday haha...XD
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